Wednesday, 31 August 2011

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How bad do you want it?


How Bad Do You Want It from Greyskale Multimedia on Vimeo.



Unreal. Now if I could only figure out what I want...


Monday, 29 August 2011

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Now what?

I've been asking myself this question a lot lately and still don't have an answer. Lots of change happening around me while many things stay the same. Not sure I'm a fan of the current status quo but uncertain as to what needs to change, what would be a better option. Various things come to mind but nothing shines as a clear answer. Any type of change is going to require a leap of faith and acceptance of being uncomfortable for a while. I don't know if I'm quite ready to do that but I am definitely getting tired of choosing unhappiness over uncertainty. I need to make a choice and just go for it. I have support from those who love me and the one who's life is intertwined with mine and would be most affected by this, so there's really no reason not to. It's just the walls I've put up in my own mind, the fears and discomfort that I haven't yet embraced. Working on that. Once I embrace that and determined that I'll be okay then I can jump and hopefully hit the ground running.

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Love my Dr Martens!

Saturday, 27 August 2011

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More iphone fun. :)

Friday, 26 August 2011

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Had some fun with a photo app on my iphone and this was my result!

Day 25

I haven't written for the past few days as I really haven't had anything to say. Today's post is borrowed from highexistence.com. Enjoy!

Wednesday, 24 August 2011

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Still working my way through Fringe photos. This one is from the Late Night Cabaret on August 19.

Tuesday, 23 August 2011

Monday, 22 August 2011

Sunday, 21 August 2011

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Another photo from a few days ago - still working my way through lots so none were taken today.

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Friday, 19 August 2011

Day 18

"Forever has no meaning
when you're living in the
moment. I wasn't ready
for that moment to end."

Amen.


(From impulse by Ellen Hopkins)

Thursday, 18 August 2011

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This photo was actually taken on the 16th but I've been working my way through the photos of the past 3 days and wanted to share this edit. So, it's today's photo.

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Day 17

Well there is no shortage of inspiration or photos for me. It's Fringe Festival time here and I've been out to it the last three evenings. Which, incidentally, has also worked for getting up early, so there's three challenges covered by one thing. :) Still struggling to work on my Italian course as playing with photos is more appealing but I'm going to try to get in some of both tonight. Chores are done and things are quiet. I have 4.5 hours left in my shift so should be able to fit both in.

Wednesday, 17 August 2011

Tuesday, 16 August 2011

What's important?

A philosophy professor stood before his class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with rocks, about two inches in diameter.

He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles of course, rolled into the open areas between the rocks.

He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He then asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous - yes.

"Now," said the professor, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The rocks are the important things - your family, your partner, your health, your children - things that if everything else were lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, your car. The sand is everything else - the small stuff.

"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the rocks. The same goes for your life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have time for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out dancing. There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, give a dinner party, or fix the disposal.

"Take care of the rocks first - the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

~Author unknown

Day 15

Busy weekend, busy Monday, but it's all good. Got my photos from over the weekend posted. Took lots today at the Fringe Festival but haven't had a chance to post one. Maybe tomorrow before I head out to take more - depends how organized I am and what time I get myself out of bed. Will have lots of photos and lots of inspiration this week. I love the fringe. It's so much fun and there are so many amazing people involved to make it happen.

I'm struggling to get back into the groove of my italian course but hopefully the fact that it's coming up quick and plans are being solidified will give me some incentive to get back at it. Being able to speak at least a little coherently would be preferable. So, I should get on that. Maybe after I share a story on here.

Ciao!

Monday, 15 August 2011

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Actually taken on the 13th but this partying was the reason I don't have one taken on the 14th.

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Friday, 12 August 2011

Day 11

So, considering how things have been going I'm modifying my challenges.

I'm opting out of the cold showers because they just aren't working for me and the idea that they're more invigorating and good for the skin is not something I've found to be accurate. I find it more invigorating to have a warm/hot shower and end it with a bit of cold and I can't say I've seen any difference in my skin except maybe that my excema seems worse with the cold water - can't say I'm a big fan of being itchy.

For the waking up early I will continue to work with this idea though my schedule's all over the place so defining early is not the easiest thing and when I have days of only 3-4 hours sleep the next day is almost guaranteed to involved 10+ hours of sleep. So, I'm going to aim not to lay around in bed needlessly. If I've gotten enough sleep I'll get up and go from there.

The meditation I'm going with trying it when it seems fitting and not trying to force myself to meditate daily. I can definitely see how it can be beneficial/useful as some simple meditation of focusing on my breath helped me through 3 hours of tattooing.

I'm continuing to take daily photos, trying to work on my Italian course daily (despite slacking on this over the past week...), being inspired - through the quote I posted as well as other things I'm finding and the people I'm around - and I'm continuing to post here, trying for daily, not always working but I'm pretty close.

The next few days I'm not at home but will aim to continue posting my daily photo and writing a little bit of something. If it doesn't work out then the photos will be posted Sunday and I'll doing some writing then.

Until next time!

"I think everybody should like everybody." ~ Andy Warhol

Thursday, 11 August 2011

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Day 10

"Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted."



Watched the video of this talk over the past hour and a bit and have to say I very much enjoyed it. It got me thinking about a number of things and how I live my life and how some of the things Randy speaks about fit or could fit into my life. If you have the time I definitely reccomend that you watch this video. Randy is an inspiration and it's fascinating to learn about what he did to achieve his dreams and how he's helped others to work towards achieving theirs.

I've been trying to remember what my childhood dreams were and, to be honest, I have no idea. I recall seeing a video of me and my classmates in kindergarten in which each of us talked about and showed what we wanted to be when we grew up. In this video I talked about wanting to be a mother. I haven't achieved this in the obvious sense in that I do not have any children but if you consider what I do and the role I play I'd have to say that I have achieved this. I'm a youth counsellor, which essentialy means I am a part time parent to the youth I work with. I am the caregiver, someone who never gives up on them, someone who believes in them and their dreams, and someone that's consistently there for them. Maybe one of these days I will also be a mother in the traditional sense, who knows, but either way I'm going to keep aiming to live my life the best I can and to be good to those around me.

What were your childhood dreams? Did you achieve them? Or have they been lost in time? Given up on?

And as a final note, one of the best pieces of advice in this video:
"Never lose the child-like wonder."

Wednesday, 10 August 2011

Tuesday, 9 August 2011

Day 8

A little funny inspiration for everyone taken from an email I got somewhere along the way.

One day a farmer's donkey fell down into awell. The animal cried piteously for hours asthe farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and thewell needed to be covered up anyway;

it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.

He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and beganto shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up.

As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up.

Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!

Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:
Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.
Free your mind from worries - Most never happen.
Live simply and appreciate what you have.
Give more.
Expect less

NOW ...........
Enough of that crap . The donkey later came back, and bit the farmer who had tried to bury him. The gash from the bite got infected and the farmer eventually died in agony from septic shock.

MORAL FROM TODAY'S LESSON:
When you do something wrong, and try to cover your ass, it always comes back to bite you.

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Monday, 8 August 2011

Day 6 and 7

Didn't post on day 6 as I didn't really have anything I wanted to say.

Completing my challenges has been lacking as my schedule was shifted to volunteer at the Folk Festival all weekend. Managed the photos but did not work on my Italian course or do any meditation. Also struggling with the cold showers - I really like my showers hot and am not finding much benefit in the cold ones for me so this one may get scrapped or modified anyway, the past couple days have been hot showers with a cold ending, I'll have to decide whether or not to continue with this one. I also have to look at the meditation. It sounds like a good idea but I'm struggling with the motivation to actually give it a decent shot which is resulting in trouble quieting my mind enough, trouble sitting still, and leading to disinterest in it and a little frustration, so this may not pan out either. Otherwise, I still see my inspirational picture and words daily and work on finding inspiration in other things as well and now that I'll be back into a more consistent schedule I'll work on the getting up early, and get back to my Italian course as well.

Have a fantastic week!

Sunday, 7 August 2011

Saturday, 6 August 2011

Day 5

Well, today's a bit of a write off as far as the challenges go but I'm okay with that. Had a fabulous relaxing afternoon, a good volunteer shift, and went to see the Conan movie with Herbie and James this evening. Now just hanging out at home, relaxing till it's bedtime. Tomorrow is more volunteering and planning to see K T Tunstall in the evening. :)

Ciao

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Friday, 5 August 2011

Day 4

Today has been a long day so I really don't have much to say at the moment. Got my photo and my cold shower, a few minutes of meditation, tons of inspiration, no Italian, and was up early to volunteer at 9am. Had a fantastic volunteer shift and evening of music at the Folk Festival. After a day full of sun and fresh air I'm wiped and will crash soon. So, that's really all I have for now.

Ciao

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Wednesday, 3 August 2011

Day 3

Well, today's a bit of a write off as far as some of the challenges. I was up for about 22 hours, slept for a couple hours, up again now for a bit but pretty sure I'll be in bed soon. Had a fabulous morning with one of my best friends which leaves me inspired and pumped. So, that's awesome but at this point studying is not going to happen and I'm thinkin neither is the meditation, but I'm okay with that. Volunteering over the next few days and that's always inspiring. Will aim to fit in some studying and meditation along with continuing the photos over the next few day despite the wonky schedule. We'll see how the next few days go and will get back to a more regular schedule and back into some kind of swing of things next week.

Lookin forward to the music!

Ciao!

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Day 2

Buon giorno! Come va?

Journal/Blog day 2

Was a little more successful with the meditation this time around. Got a few minutes in before I slept and a little more this evening before heading to work. Still struggling to clear my mind and focus but a little at a time I'll get there.

Was up around 5pm today and took and posted my photo for the day. Got into a cold shower again. I think I'm going to struggle to take a cold shower every day for 30 days as it's tough and I like really hot showers. But, I'll keep trying and we'll see what happens.

Spent almost an hour and a half on my Italian course today. I'm almost finished the second level (there are 5 levels, each with 4 units of 4 lessons). Bravo! Yay me!

Working on maintaining some inspiration. I see the words on my mirror and again on the computer at work. I find myself checking my attitude more often to ensure I'm looking at the positive and not just dwelling on the negative. :)

The next few days are going to be wonky as I'm going to be essentially functioning on naps. As I mentioned in the last entry I work nights but I'm off for the next few days and will be volunteering at the Folk Festival (woot!) so I'll be a little all over the place. This puts getting up early out of the running because if one is going off of naps what is early? Ha ha. Anyway, I'm aiming to keep up with the rest of the tasks. Wish me luck!

Questo รจ tutto per ora.
Ciao!

Tuesday, 2 August 2011

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Day 1

Buon giorno!

My journal/blog for day 1.
So far so good.

Found my inspiration for the month:

For everything you have missed, you have gained something else; And for everything you gain, you lose something else. It is about your outlook towards life. You can either regret or rejoice.
(photo here - it is my current desktop background at work and a printed copy is on my mirror)

I was able to get up early (for me) today at 4:30pm - I work nights so I get home between 7:30 and 8:00am and am often not up till around 7:00pm lately. Therefore, I did well with this one. :)

Took and posted my photo this afternoon (see previous post) and had a cold shower - wow is that ever tough to get into intially, had to start warm and work into colder, but I did it. And as far as my studying I spent the past 1.5-2 hours working on my Italian course. Parla con me?

My challenge today has definitely been the meditation. I couldn't focus or get my thoughts to stop long enough to be successful before work, maybe I'll have better luck this morning before I sleep. I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow.

Until then remember: Attitutde is a little thing that makes a big difference.

Ciao!

Monday, 1 August 2011

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30 Day Challenge

*Inspired by: High Existence

Was reading articles on high existence and came across one on 30 challenges for 30 days (see above link) and was inspired to take on a few for myself through the month of August. The ones I have chosen are:

#3 Take one picture each day (Hard)
This one gets harder nearing the end of the challenge because at one point you will run out of the easy shots. This one is great to combine with other challenges, a great way to make a photo diary!
--> I will try to post each photo here.

#13 Study a topic you’d like to master each day (Hard)
Always wanted to know everything about Animal Behaviour? Psychology? Physics? Philosophy? Educate yourself without school! Pick a topic, plan at least a lecture or an assignment each day and become a genius on your passion!
--> I've been slowly working on learning Italian for an upcoming trip and have been slacking so this should help me get back on track. Maybe by the end of the month I'll post in Italian.

#18 Inspire yourself each day (Easy)
Studies have shown that people who are inspired are happier, nicer, productive and will not stray away from their chosen path if life gets difficult. So print a quote and tape it to the mirror. Have an inspirational video as your starting page. Use an inspirational mantra for meditation. Get a principle to live by. In short, get your dose of inspiration each day!
--> Now to find an appropriate quote.

#19 Take a cold shower each day (Intermediate)
Cold showers are great for uplifting ones mood, cure stress related diseases, to strengthens ones immune system and to make your skin beautiful. You can read the reports of some HEthens that have been trying it for some time over here!
--> I don't mind the occasional cold shower but a month straight...

#23 Wake up early each day (Intermediate)
It is well to be up before daybreak, for such habits contribute to health, wealth, and wisdom. – Aristotle
--> I like my sleep, this should be interesting.

#24 Keep a journal (Intermediate)
Great for memory, reflection and especially awesome to look back to in the future and remember the good old times when you did these challenges!
--> I'm going to keep my journal here so aiming for daily posts.

#26 Combine challenges (Easy)
Take a photo of yourself reading a different book at a different location. Take 10,000 steps on a new route to meet a stranger and ask for a recipe to try out. Do all challenges, a different one each day. Wake up early to make time to meditate, practice self compassion and yoga. Finish it off with a cold shower!
--> I think my list covers this.

#29 Meditate each day (Intermediate)
--> Seems like a good way for a little "me time" every day.


And so here begins my 30 days challenges. :)