Another year has come and gone, and a new one soon begins. We all resolve to do better, to be better, but how hard do we really try? How many of us make the same resolutions year after year without progress? Anyone out there ever resolve to appreciate and work with what they’ve got? Instead of always aiming for the seemingly impossible or at least improbable? Most resolutions seem to revolve around our own self image – stop smoking, lose weight, exercise more. Why not resolve to do something for others? If we all aimed to do more for others and allow things to be less “me me me” the world would be a much nicer, place don’t you think? Maybe you don’t make resolutions. I’m not sure that last time that I really made a resolution. I think for this year I’m going to aim to be kinder to strangers, smile more, let go of negatives, and enjoy every day that I have. That sounds really cheesy, I know, but it’s a good cheesy and something I think more of us should aim to do. It’s not always easy, but nothing worth doing is really ever easy. The goal is to make things better, improve the day to day. If I can make someone else’s day a little simpler then I’ve done my part and it’ll give me reason to smile. :)
So, as you embark into 2012 keep others in mind while you make plans for yourself. Smile at a stranger. Hold open a door. Say please and thank you. It’s the simple things that can make all the difference.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
WISHING YOU AND YOURS THE BEST THE WORLD HAS TO OFFER!
Saturday, 31 December 2011
Wednesday, 2 November 2011
Tuesday, 27 September 2011
Everyone should watch this film.
Make the Connection. EARTHLINGS.com
(click the link for access to full film)
There has to be a better way...
Monday, 26 September 2011
People often talk lots without saying much
How much do you think before you speak?
Do you plan your words or just spew forth verbal vomit?
Do you speak to fill the silence that seems uncomfortable?
Why should silence be uncomfortable?
Do you plan your words or just spew forth verbal vomit?
Do you speak to fill the silence that seems uncomfortable?
Why should silence be uncomfortable?
Saturday, 24 September 2011
Friday, 16 September 2011
I said it anyway
I had something to say but no one was there to listen. I said it anyway to put the words into the wind. Sending vibes into the universe with the hope that maybe someone, something, anyone, anything is listening and hears them. There's a desire to share and express and just be. A desire to be heard, to be understood or maybe misunderstood as things often go. Alone and waiting. Wanting. Needing. Wishing. Looking for that handhold to keep me grounded. Looking for that something special that makes it all worth it. Making everything make sense. Unrealistic? Maybe, but what good are dreams if they don't stretch you at least a little? Follow the yellow brick road and find the answers that were always inside. Look inside and find the you you left behind. The scared little girl. The little boy always putting on a brave face. The teenager with nothing to lose. The adult with everything to lose. We are our own creations, a unique work of art. Too bad most of us can't see it. All we see is flaws and mistakes. But there's beauty in that if we're willing to look for and see it. Perfection doesn't exist and if it did would be a flaw in itself. We are who we are. Accept it. Love it. Change it if you need to but only change for you because changing for someone else never works. Voice your opinions. Be yourself. Be okay with feeling uncomfortable or afraid but do things anyway. Don't let fear stop you. Get out of your own way. If you want something go for it. Forget the naysayers, what do they know anyway? Relish the feeling of accomplishing something you were told you couldn't. Reach for the sky but stay grounded. Stay true to you and aim for happiness. Whatever that may mean to you. Remember your strengths and use them. Remember who you are and share that with the world. We are all beautiful works of art that should be shared. Loved. Admired.
Thursday, 8 September 2011
Quote by Marianne Williamson
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we’re liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
(A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of “A Course in Miracles”, Harper Collins, 1992. From Chapter 7, Section 3])
(A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of “A Course in Miracles”, Harper Collins, 1992. From Chapter 7, Section 3])
Thursday, 1 September 2011
Final challenge thoughts
Well, my 31st daily photo is up and its now September. My 30 days are over. How did I do? Good with some things and no so good with others. To recap:
#3 Take one picture each day (Hard)This one gets harder nearing the end of the challenge because at one point you will run out of the easy shots. This one is great to combine with other challenges, a great way to make a photo diary!
--> I did pretty good with this one I think. There were a few days where I was unable to take a new photo but still shared one from a day or two before. And I think a few days of taking 100+ photos makes up for one or two missed ones. I plan to try to consistenly share more photos maybe posting one weekly or if ambitious enough daily but not necessarily one taken that day. I'll aim to share these on my facebook page and my own webpage (once I reformat it - thinking more photoblog style is what I want). So, if you're interested keep a look out.
#13 Study a topic you’d like to master each day (Hard)Always wanted to know everything about Animal Behaviour? Psychology? Physics? Philosophy? Educate yourself without school! Pick a topic, plan at least a lecture or an assignment each day and become a genius on your passion!
--> So, not at a point of posting in Italian but still working my way through the course. I think I have at least a functional basis to work with while travelling. Going to continue working on it for my trip (27 days till we leave!) and if I don't complete it before leaving then I will continue when I get back so I complete the course.
#18 Inspire yourself each day (Easy)Studies have shown that people who are inspired are happier, nicer, productive and will not stray away from their chosen path if life gets difficult. So print a quote and tape it to the mirror. Have an inspirational video as your starting page. Use an inspirational mantra for meditation. Get a principle to live by. In short, get your dose of inspiration each day!
--> This one was definitely not a difficult challenge, especially when it's the time of year for festivals and volunteering with amazing people.
#19 Take a cold shower each day (Intermediate)Cold showers are great for uplifting ones mood, cure stress related diseases, to strengthens ones immune system and to make your skin beautiful. You can read the reports of some HEthens that have been trying it for some time over here!
--> If you were following my updates at all you already know I scrapped this one. I like my hot showers and was not finding any benefits to the cold ones so gave them up. If you like cold showers and/or benefit from them good for you. Enjoy!
#23 Wake up early each day (Intermediate)It is well to be up before daybreak, for such habits contribute to health, wealth, and wisdom. – Aristotle
--> This one didn't work out very well, mostly because of my work schedule and switching back and forth between days and nights to accomodate volunteering and other events. I tried, and for a while did well with this. Overall, I'd say it was good for me as I put effort in to doing more with my time, more things I enjoy, and not wasting time laying in bed being lazy.
#24 Keep a journal (Intermediate)Great for memory, reflection and especially awesome to look back to in the future and remember the good old times when you did these challenges!
--> Well, again this varied. Tried to regularly post on here as to how things are going and what I've been doing but sometimes I just didn't feel like writing or putting things out there so it didn't happen. I do see some benefits and maybe I should look into a private journal instead of something being posted online (even if it seems no one but me looks at it).
#26 Combine challenges (Easy)Take a photo of yourself reading a different book at a different location. Take 10,000 steps on a new route to meet a stranger and ask for a recipe to try out. Do all challenges, a different one each day. Wake up early to make time to meditate, practice self compassion and yoga. Finish it off with a cold shower!
--> I don't know how to judge the success of this one. I guess I did it as I took on multiple challenges.
#29 Meditate each day (Intermediate)
--> This is another one that didn't pan out very well. I like the idea, it still sounds like a good idea, but I had a lot of stuggles with this and often found it more frustrating than relaxing. I may try this again some time and see if I can find something that works for me but for now I'll just leave it as is.
#3 Take one picture each day (Hard)This one gets harder nearing the end of the challenge because at one point you will run out of the easy shots. This one is great to combine with other challenges, a great way to make a photo diary!
--> I did pretty good with this one I think. There were a few days where I was unable to take a new photo but still shared one from a day or two before. And I think a few days of taking 100+ photos makes up for one or two missed ones. I plan to try to consistenly share more photos maybe posting one weekly or if ambitious enough daily but not necessarily one taken that day. I'll aim to share these on my facebook page and my own webpage (once I reformat it - thinking more photoblog style is what I want). So, if you're interested keep a look out.
#13 Study a topic you’d like to master each day (Hard)Always wanted to know everything about Animal Behaviour? Psychology? Physics? Philosophy? Educate yourself without school! Pick a topic, plan at least a lecture or an assignment each day and become a genius on your passion!
--> So, not at a point of posting in Italian but still working my way through the course. I think I have at least a functional basis to work with while travelling. Going to continue working on it for my trip (27 days till we leave!) and if I don't complete it before leaving then I will continue when I get back so I complete the course.
#18 Inspire yourself each day (Easy)Studies have shown that people who are inspired are happier, nicer, productive and will not stray away from their chosen path if life gets difficult. So print a quote and tape it to the mirror. Have an inspirational video as your starting page. Use an inspirational mantra for meditation. Get a principle to live by. In short, get your dose of inspiration each day!
--> This one was definitely not a difficult challenge, especially when it's the time of year for festivals and volunteering with amazing people.
#19 Take a cold shower each day (Intermediate)Cold showers are great for uplifting ones mood, cure stress related diseases, to strengthens ones immune system and to make your skin beautiful. You can read the reports of some HEthens that have been trying it for some time over here!
--> If you were following my updates at all you already know I scrapped this one. I like my hot showers and was not finding any benefits to the cold ones so gave them up. If you like cold showers and/or benefit from them good for you. Enjoy!
#23 Wake up early each day (Intermediate)It is well to be up before daybreak, for such habits contribute to health, wealth, and wisdom. – Aristotle
--> This one didn't work out very well, mostly because of my work schedule and switching back and forth between days and nights to accomodate volunteering and other events. I tried, and for a while did well with this. Overall, I'd say it was good for me as I put effort in to doing more with my time, more things I enjoy, and not wasting time laying in bed being lazy.
#24 Keep a journal (Intermediate)Great for memory, reflection and especially awesome to look back to in the future and remember the good old times when you did these challenges!
--> Well, again this varied. Tried to regularly post on here as to how things are going and what I've been doing but sometimes I just didn't feel like writing or putting things out there so it didn't happen. I do see some benefits and maybe I should look into a private journal instead of something being posted online (even if it seems no one but me looks at it).
#26 Combine challenges (Easy)Take a photo of yourself reading a different book at a different location. Take 10,000 steps on a new route to meet a stranger and ask for a recipe to try out. Do all challenges, a different one each day. Wake up early to make time to meditate, practice self compassion and yoga. Finish it off with a cold shower!
--> I don't know how to judge the success of this one. I guess I did it as I took on multiple challenges.
#29 Meditate each day (Intermediate)
--> This is another one that didn't pan out very well. I like the idea, it still sounds like a good idea, but I had a lot of stuggles with this and often found it more frustrating than relaxing. I may try this again some time and see if I can find something that works for me but for now I'll just leave it as is.
21 Big Lessons From Little Kids
What kids know that you should never forget, no matter how old you are:
1. Breakfast is the most important meal of the day. Even when there's not a prize in the bottom of the box.
2. Sometimes it's best to be completely blunt with people, as you used to be with relatives who wanted you to do something embarrassing or tedious for a shiny quarter.
3. Asking questions is how you figure things out. Lots and lots of questions.
4. An older, wiser Gordie Lachance says in Stand By Me, "I never had any friends later on like the ones I had when I was 12." Lachance is right. The trick is to try to be the friend you were when you were 12: fun-loving and loyal, with no strings attached.
5. Playing is work. Approach your downtime with all the seriousness of a 5-year-old with a secret treasure map.
6. Real guys don't dip their toes in the water. They jump right in.
7. Girls have cooties. Well, the ones you meet in certain bars do, anyway.
8. You hated it when a grown-up told you, "We'll see." It's still unacceptable. Don't say it yourself.
9. The only way to know how something works is to completely disassemble it. (This is still good advice when tackling a complex problem. Your plasma TV? Not so much).
10. There's a reason they don't give credit cards to 8-year-olds. You're supposed to save up money before you buy a new toy.
11. Your body was designed for throwing baseballs, shooting hoops, and jumping off diving boards and stuff. In the secret language of children, the word "fitness" doesn't exist. It's called "having fun."
12. Your world can be half-real and half-imaginary.
13. Homework blows. Bring work home with you and it'll ruin your night. And your marriage. And your family. And your life.
14. Too much of anything will give you a tummy ache. Like, say, bourbon.
15. If there's even the slightest doubt, hit the potty before you leave.
16. The coolest adults were the ones who took the time to listen to you. You still want to grow up to be a cool adult, right?
17. Treasure Island, Dracula: The best books are consumed after dark with a flashlight.
18. Use adrenaline as your drug of choice. You don't need beer, pot, or cigarettes to have a good time.
19. Kissing a girl on the cheek is a big deal. Kissing her lips is an even bigger deal. Seeing her naked for the first time is a major, life-altering event.
20. Going after a target in the urinal makes the time whiz by.
21. Seeing a thunderstorm roll in is better than watching HDTV. And rain isn't something to curse, but to enjoy. Hurry up, before it clears.
(Borrowed from here)
1. Breakfast is the most important meal of the day. Even when there's not a prize in the bottom of the box.
2. Sometimes it's best to be completely blunt with people, as you used to be with relatives who wanted you to do something embarrassing or tedious for a shiny quarter.
3. Asking questions is how you figure things out. Lots and lots of questions.
4. An older, wiser Gordie Lachance says in Stand By Me, "I never had any friends later on like the ones I had when I was 12." Lachance is right. The trick is to try to be the friend you were when you were 12: fun-loving and loyal, with no strings attached.
5. Playing is work. Approach your downtime with all the seriousness of a 5-year-old with a secret treasure map.
6. Real guys don't dip their toes in the water. They jump right in.
7. Girls have cooties. Well, the ones you meet in certain bars do, anyway.
8. You hated it when a grown-up told you, "We'll see." It's still unacceptable. Don't say it yourself.
9. The only way to know how something works is to completely disassemble it. (This is still good advice when tackling a complex problem. Your plasma TV? Not so much).
10. There's a reason they don't give credit cards to 8-year-olds. You're supposed to save up money before you buy a new toy.
11. Your body was designed for throwing baseballs, shooting hoops, and jumping off diving boards and stuff. In the secret language of children, the word "fitness" doesn't exist. It's called "having fun."
12. Your world can be half-real and half-imaginary.
13. Homework blows. Bring work home with you and it'll ruin your night. And your marriage. And your family. And your life.
14. Too much of anything will give you a tummy ache. Like, say, bourbon.
15. If there's even the slightest doubt, hit the potty before you leave.
16. The coolest adults were the ones who took the time to listen to you. You still want to grow up to be a cool adult, right?
17. Treasure Island, Dracula: The best books are consumed after dark with a flashlight.
18. Use adrenaline as your drug of choice. You don't need beer, pot, or cigarettes to have a good time.
19. Kissing a girl on the cheek is a big deal. Kissing her lips is an even bigger deal. Seeing her naked for the first time is a major, life-altering event.
20. Going after a target in the urinal makes the time whiz by.
21. Seeing a thunderstorm roll in is better than watching HDTV. And rain isn't something to curse, but to enjoy. Hurry up, before it clears.
(Borrowed from here)
Wednesday, 31 August 2011
How bad do you want it?
How Bad Do You Want It from Greyskale Multimedia on Vimeo.
Unreal. Now if I could only figure out what I want...
Monday, 29 August 2011
Now what?
I've been asking myself this question a lot lately and still don't have an answer. Lots of change happening around me while many things stay the same. Not sure I'm a fan of the current status quo but uncertain as to what needs to change, what would be a better option. Various things come to mind but nothing shines as a clear answer. Any type of change is going to require a leap of faith and acceptance of being uncomfortable for a while. I don't know if I'm quite ready to do that but I am definitely getting tired of choosing unhappiness over uncertainty. I need to make a choice and just go for it. I have support from those who love me and the one who's life is intertwined with mine and would be most affected by this, so there's really no reason not to. It's just the walls I've put up in my own mind, the fears and discomfort that I haven't yet embraced. Working on that. Once I embrace that and determined that I'll be okay then I can jump and hopefully hit the ground running.
Saturday, 27 August 2011
Friday, 26 August 2011
Day 25
I haven't written for the past few days as I really haven't had anything to say. Today's post is borrowed from highexistence.com. Enjoy!
Wednesday, 24 August 2011
Daily photo 24
Still working my way through Fringe photos. This one is from the Late Night Cabaret on August 19.
Tuesday, 23 August 2011
Monday, 22 August 2011
Sunday, 21 August 2011
Daily photo 21
Another photo from a few days ago - still working my way through lots so none were taken today.
Friday, 19 August 2011
Day 18
"Forever has no meaning
when you're living in the
moment. I wasn't ready
for that moment to end."
Amen.
(From impulse by Ellen Hopkins)
when you're living in the
moment. I wasn't ready
for that moment to end."
Amen.
(From impulse by Ellen Hopkins)
Thursday, 18 August 2011
Daily photo 18
This photo was actually taken on the 16th but I've been working my way through the photos of the past 3 days and wanted to share this edit. So, it's today's photo.
Day 17
Well there is no shortage of inspiration or photos for me. It's Fringe Festival time here and I've been out to it the last three evenings. Which, incidentally, has also worked for getting up early, so there's three challenges covered by one thing. :) Still struggling to work on my Italian course as playing with photos is more appealing but I'm going to try to get in some of both tonight. Chores are done and things are quiet. I have 4.5 hours left in my shift so should be able to fit both in.
Wednesday, 17 August 2011
Tuesday, 16 August 2011
What's important?
A philosophy professor stood before his class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with rocks, about two inches in diameter.
He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles of course, rolled into the open areas between the rocks.
He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He then asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous - yes.
"Now," said the professor, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The rocks are the important things - your family, your partner, your health, your children - things that if everything else were lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, your car. The sand is everything else - the small stuff.
"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the rocks. The same goes for your life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have time for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out dancing. There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, give a dinner party, or fix the disposal.
"Take care of the rocks first - the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."
~Author unknown
He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles of course, rolled into the open areas between the rocks.
He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He then asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous - yes.
"Now," said the professor, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The rocks are the important things - your family, your partner, your health, your children - things that if everything else were lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, your car. The sand is everything else - the small stuff.
"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the rocks. The same goes for your life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have time for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out dancing. There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, give a dinner party, or fix the disposal.
"Take care of the rocks first - the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."
~Author unknown
Day 15
Busy weekend, busy Monday, but it's all good. Got my photos from over the weekend posted. Took lots today at the Fringe Festival but haven't had a chance to post one. Maybe tomorrow before I head out to take more - depends how organized I am and what time I get myself out of bed. Will have lots of photos and lots of inspiration this week. I love the fringe. It's so much fun and there are so many amazing people involved to make it happen.
I'm struggling to get back into the groove of my italian course but hopefully the fact that it's coming up quick and plans are being solidified will give me some incentive to get back at it. Being able to speak at least a little coherently would be preferable. So, I should get on that. Maybe after I share a story on here.
Ciao!
I'm struggling to get back into the groove of my italian course but hopefully the fact that it's coming up quick and plans are being solidified will give me some incentive to get back at it. Being able to speak at least a little coherently would be preferable. So, I should get on that. Maybe after I share a story on here.
Ciao!
Monday, 15 August 2011
Daily photo 14
Actually taken on the 13th but this partying was the reason I don't have one taken on the 14th.
Friday, 12 August 2011
Day 11
So, considering how things have been going I'm modifying my challenges.
I'm opting out of the cold showers because they just aren't working for me and the idea that they're more invigorating and good for the skin is not something I've found to be accurate. I find it more invigorating to have a warm/hot shower and end it with a bit of cold and I can't say I've seen any difference in my skin except maybe that my excema seems worse with the cold water - can't say I'm a big fan of being itchy.
For the waking up early I will continue to work with this idea though my schedule's all over the place so defining early is not the easiest thing and when I have days of only 3-4 hours sleep the next day is almost guaranteed to involved 10+ hours of sleep. So, I'm going to aim not to lay around in bed needlessly. If I've gotten enough sleep I'll get up and go from there.
The meditation I'm going with trying it when it seems fitting and not trying to force myself to meditate daily. I can definitely see how it can be beneficial/useful as some simple meditation of focusing on my breath helped me through 3 hours of tattooing.
I'm continuing to take daily photos, trying to work on my Italian course daily (despite slacking on this over the past week...), being inspired - through the quote I posted as well as other things I'm finding and the people I'm around - and I'm continuing to post here, trying for daily, not always working but I'm pretty close.
The next few days I'm not at home but will aim to continue posting my daily photo and writing a little bit of something. If it doesn't work out then the photos will be posted Sunday and I'll doing some writing then.
Until next time!
"I think everybody should like everybody." ~ Andy Warhol
I'm opting out of the cold showers because they just aren't working for me and the idea that they're more invigorating and good for the skin is not something I've found to be accurate. I find it more invigorating to have a warm/hot shower and end it with a bit of cold and I can't say I've seen any difference in my skin except maybe that my excema seems worse with the cold water - can't say I'm a big fan of being itchy.
For the waking up early I will continue to work with this idea though my schedule's all over the place so defining early is not the easiest thing and when I have days of only 3-4 hours sleep the next day is almost guaranteed to involved 10+ hours of sleep. So, I'm going to aim not to lay around in bed needlessly. If I've gotten enough sleep I'll get up and go from there.
The meditation I'm going with trying it when it seems fitting and not trying to force myself to meditate daily. I can definitely see how it can be beneficial/useful as some simple meditation of focusing on my breath helped me through 3 hours of tattooing.
I'm continuing to take daily photos, trying to work on my Italian course daily (despite slacking on this over the past week...), being inspired - through the quote I posted as well as other things I'm finding and the people I'm around - and I'm continuing to post here, trying for daily, not always working but I'm pretty close.
The next few days I'm not at home but will aim to continue posting my daily photo and writing a little bit of something. If it doesn't work out then the photos will be posted Sunday and I'll doing some writing then.
Until next time!
"I think everybody should like everybody." ~ Andy Warhol
Thursday, 11 August 2011
Day 10
"Experience is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted."
Watched the video of this talk over the past hour and a bit and have to say I very much enjoyed it. It got me thinking about a number of things and how I live my life and how some of the things Randy speaks about fit or could fit into my life. If you have the time I definitely reccomend that you watch this video. Randy is an inspiration and it's fascinating to learn about what he did to achieve his dreams and how he's helped others to work towards achieving theirs.
I've been trying to remember what my childhood dreams were and, to be honest, I have no idea. I recall seeing a video of me and my classmates in kindergarten in which each of us talked about and showed what we wanted to be when we grew up. In this video I talked about wanting to be a mother. I haven't achieved this in the obvious sense in that I do not have any children but if you consider what I do and the role I play I'd have to say that I have achieved this. I'm a youth counsellor, which essentialy means I am a part time parent to the youth I work with. I am the caregiver, someone who never gives up on them, someone who believes in them and their dreams, and someone that's consistently there for them. Maybe one of these days I will also be a mother in the traditional sense, who knows, but either way I'm going to keep aiming to live my life the best I can and to be good to those around me.
What were your childhood dreams? Did you achieve them? Or have they been lost in time? Given up on?
And as a final note, one of the best pieces of advice in this video:
"Never lose the child-like wonder."
Watched the video of this talk over the past hour and a bit and have to say I very much enjoyed it. It got me thinking about a number of things and how I live my life and how some of the things Randy speaks about fit or could fit into my life. If you have the time I definitely reccomend that you watch this video. Randy is an inspiration and it's fascinating to learn about what he did to achieve his dreams and how he's helped others to work towards achieving theirs.
I've been trying to remember what my childhood dreams were and, to be honest, I have no idea. I recall seeing a video of me and my classmates in kindergarten in which each of us talked about and showed what we wanted to be when we grew up. In this video I talked about wanting to be a mother. I haven't achieved this in the obvious sense in that I do not have any children but if you consider what I do and the role I play I'd have to say that I have achieved this. I'm a youth counsellor, which essentialy means I am a part time parent to the youth I work with. I am the caregiver, someone who never gives up on them, someone who believes in them and their dreams, and someone that's consistently there for them. Maybe one of these days I will also be a mother in the traditional sense, who knows, but either way I'm going to keep aiming to live my life the best I can and to be good to those around me.
What were your childhood dreams? Did you achieve them? Or have they been lost in time? Given up on?
And as a final note, one of the best pieces of advice in this video:
"Never lose the child-like wonder."
Wednesday, 10 August 2011
Tuesday, 9 August 2011
Day 8
A little funny inspiration for everyone taken from an email I got somewhere along the way.
One day a farmer's donkey fell down into awell. The animal cried piteously for hours asthe farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and thewell needed to be covered up anyway;
it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.
He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and beganto shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down.
A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up.
As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up.
Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!
Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.
Remember the five simple rules to be happy:
Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.
Free your mind from worries - Most never happen.
Live simply and appreciate what you have.
Give more.
Expect less
NOW ...........
Enough of that crap . The donkey later came back, and bit the farmer who had tried to bury him. The gash from the bite got infected and the farmer eventually died in agony from septic shock.
MORAL FROM TODAY'S LESSON:
When you do something wrong, and try to cover your ass, it always comes back to bite you.
One day a farmer's donkey fell down into awell. The animal cried piteously for hours asthe farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and thewell needed to be covered up anyway;
it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.
He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and beganto shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down.
A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up.
As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up.
Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!
Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.
Remember the five simple rules to be happy:
Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.
Free your mind from worries - Most never happen.
Live simply and appreciate what you have.
Give more.
Expect less
NOW ...........
Enough of that crap . The donkey later came back, and bit the farmer who had tried to bury him. The gash from the bite got infected and the farmer eventually died in agony from septic shock.
MORAL FROM TODAY'S LESSON:
When you do something wrong, and try to cover your ass, it always comes back to bite you.
Monday, 8 August 2011
Day 6 and 7
Didn't post on day 6 as I didn't really have anything I wanted to say.
Completing my challenges has been lacking as my schedule was shifted to volunteer at the Folk Festival all weekend. Managed the photos but did not work on my Italian course or do any meditation. Also struggling with the cold showers - I really like my showers hot and am not finding much benefit in the cold ones for me so this one may get scrapped or modified anyway, the past couple days have been hot showers with a cold ending, I'll have to decide whether or not to continue with this one. I also have to look at the meditation. It sounds like a good idea but I'm struggling with the motivation to actually give it a decent shot which is resulting in trouble quieting my mind enough, trouble sitting still, and leading to disinterest in it and a little frustration, so this may not pan out either. Otherwise, I still see my inspirational picture and words daily and work on finding inspiration in other things as well and now that I'll be back into a more consistent schedule I'll work on the getting up early, and get back to my Italian course as well.
Have a fantastic week!
Completing my challenges has been lacking as my schedule was shifted to volunteer at the Folk Festival all weekend. Managed the photos but did not work on my Italian course or do any meditation. Also struggling with the cold showers - I really like my showers hot and am not finding much benefit in the cold ones for me so this one may get scrapped or modified anyway, the past couple days have been hot showers with a cold ending, I'll have to decide whether or not to continue with this one. I also have to look at the meditation. It sounds like a good idea but I'm struggling with the motivation to actually give it a decent shot which is resulting in trouble quieting my mind enough, trouble sitting still, and leading to disinterest in it and a little frustration, so this may not pan out either. Otherwise, I still see my inspirational picture and words daily and work on finding inspiration in other things as well and now that I'll be back into a more consistent schedule I'll work on the getting up early, and get back to my Italian course as well.
Have a fantastic week!
Sunday, 7 August 2011
Saturday, 6 August 2011
Day 5
Well, today's a bit of a write off as far as the challenges go but I'm okay with that. Had a fabulous relaxing afternoon, a good volunteer shift, and went to see the Conan movie with Herbie and James this evening. Now just hanging out at home, relaxing till it's bedtime. Tomorrow is more volunteering and planning to see K T Tunstall in the evening. :)
Ciao
Ciao
Friday, 5 August 2011
Day 4
Today has been a long day so I really don't have much to say at the moment. Got my photo and my cold shower, a few minutes of meditation, tons of inspiration, no Italian, and was up early to volunteer at 9am. Had a fantastic volunteer shift and evening of music at the Folk Festival. After a day full of sun and fresh air I'm wiped and will crash soon. So, that's really all I have for now.
Ciao
Ciao
Wednesday, 3 August 2011
Day 3
Well, today's a bit of a write off as far as some of the challenges. I was up for about 22 hours, slept for a couple hours, up again now for a bit but pretty sure I'll be in bed soon. Had a fabulous morning with one of my best friends which leaves me inspired and pumped. So, that's awesome but at this point studying is not going to happen and I'm thinkin neither is the meditation, but I'm okay with that. Volunteering over the next few days and that's always inspiring. Will aim to fit in some studying and meditation along with continuing the photos over the next few day despite the wonky schedule. We'll see how the next few days go and will get back to a more regular schedule and back into some kind of swing of things next week.
Lookin forward to the music!
Ciao!
Lookin forward to the music!
Ciao!
Day 2
Buon giorno! Come va?
Journal/Blog day 2
Was a little more successful with the meditation this time around. Got a few minutes in before I slept and a little more this evening before heading to work. Still struggling to clear my mind and focus but a little at a time I'll get there.
Was up around 5pm today and took and posted my photo for the day. Got into a cold shower again. I think I'm going to struggle to take a cold shower every day for 30 days as it's tough and I like really hot showers. But, I'll keep trying and we'll see what happens.
Spent almost an hour and a half on my Italian course today. I'm almost finished the second level (there are 5 levels, each with 4 units of 4 lessons). Bravo! Yay me!
Working on maintaining some inspiration. I see the words on my mirror and again on the computer at work. I find myself checking my attitude more often to ensure I'm looking at the positive and not just dwelling on the negative. :)
The next few days are going to be wonky as I'm going to be essentially functioning on naps. As I mentioned in the last entry I work nights but I'm off for the next few days and will be volunteering at the Folk Festival (woot!) so I'll be a little all over the place. This puts getting up early out of the running because if one is going off of naps what is early? Ha ha. Anyway, I'm aiming to keep up with the rest of the tasks. Wish me luck!
Questo è tutto per ora.
Ciao!
Journal/Blog day 2
Was a little more successful with the meditation this time around. Got a few minutes in before I slept and a little more this evening before heading to work. Still struggling to clear my mind and focus but a little at a time I'll get there.
Was up around 5pm today and took and posted my photo for the day. Got into a cold shower again. I think I'm going to struggle to take a cold shower every day for 30 days as it's tough and I like really hot showers. But, I'll keep trying and we'll see what happens.
Spent almost an hour and a half on my Italian course today. I'm almost finished the second level (there are 5 levels, each with 4 units of 4 lessons). Bravo! Yay me!
Working on maintaining some inspiration. I see the words on my mirror and again on the computer at work. I find myself checking my attitude more often to ensure I'm looking at the positive and not just dwelling on the negative. :)
The next few days are going to be wonky as I'm going to be essentially functioning on naps. As I mentioned in the last entry I work nights but I'm off for the next few days and will be volunteering at the Folk Festival (woot!) so I'll be a little all over the place. This puts getting up early out of the running because if one is going off of naps what is early? Ha ha. Anyway, I'm aiming to keep up with the rest of the tasks. Wish me luck!
Questo è tutto per ora.
Ciao!
Tuesday, 2 August 2011
Day 1
Buon giorno!
My journal/blog for day 1.
So far so good.
Found my inspiration for the month:
I was able to get up early (for me) today at 4:30pm - I work nights so I get home between 7:30 and 8:00am and am often not up till around 7:00pm lately. Therefore, I did well with this one. :)
Took and posted my photo this afternoon (see previous post) and had a cold shower - wow is that ever tough to get into intially, had to start warm and work into colder, but I did it. And as far as my studying I spent the past 1.5-2 hours working on my Italian course. Parla con me?
My challenge today has definitely been the meditation. I couldn't focus or get my thoughts to stop long enough to be successful before work, maybe I'll have better luck this morning before I sleep. I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow.
Until then remember: Attitutde is a little thing that makes a big difference.
Ciao!
My journal/blog for day 1.
So far so good.
Found my inspiration for the month:
For everything you have missed, you have gained something else; And for everything you gain, you lose something else. It is about your outlook towards life. You can either regret or rejoice.(photo here - it is my current desktop background at work and a printed copy is on my mirror)
I was able to get up early (for me) today at 4:30pm - I work nights so I get home between 7:30 and 8:00am and am often not up till around 7:00pm lately. Therefore, I did well with this one. :)
Took and posted my photo this afternoon (see previous post) and had a cold shower - wow is that ever tough to get into intially, had to start warm and work into colder, but I did it. And as far as my studying I spent the past 1.5-2 hours working on my Italian course. Parla con me?
My challenge today has definitely been the meditation. I couldn't focus or get my thoughts to stop long enough to be successful before work, maybe I'll have better luck this morning before I sleep. I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow.
Until then remember: Attitutde is a little thing that makes a big difference.
Ciao!
Monday, 1 August 2011
30 Day Challenge
*Inspired by: High Existence
Was reading articles on high existence and came across one on 30 challenges for 30 days (see above link) and was inspired to take on a few for myself through the month of August. The ones I have chosen are:
#3 Take one picture each day (Hard)
This one gets harder nearing the end of the challenge because at one point you will run out of the easy shots. This one is great to combine with other challenges, a great way to make a photo diary!
--> I will try to post each photo here.
#13 Study a topic you’d like to master each day (Hard)
Always wanted to know everything about Animal Behaviour? Psychology? Physics? Philosophy? Educate yourself without school! Pick a topic, plan at least a lecture or an assignment each day and become a genius on your passion!
--> I've been slowly working on learning Italian for an upcoming trip and have been slacking so this should help me get back on track. Maybe by the end of the month I'll post in Italian.
#18 Inspire yourself each day (Easy)
Studies have shown that people who are inspired are happier, nicer, productive and will not stray away from their chosen path if life gets difficult. So print a quote and tape it to the mirror. Have an inspirational video as your starting page. Use an inspirational mantra for meditation. Get a principle to live by. In short, get your dose of inspiration each day!
--> Now to find an appropriate quote.
#19 Take a cold shower each day (Intermediate)
Cold showers are great for uplifting ones mood, cure stress related diseases, to strengthens ones immune system and to make your skin beautiful. You can read the reports of some HEthens that have been trying it for some time over here!
--> I don't mind the occasional cold shower but a month straight...
#23 Wake up early each day (Intermediate)
It is well to be up before daybreak, for such habits contribute to health, wealth, and wisdom. – Aristotle
--> I like my sleep, this should be interesting.
#24 Keep a journal (Intermediate)
Great for memory, reflection and especially awesome to look back to in the future and remember the good old times when you did these challenges!
--> I'm going to keep my journal here so aiming for daily posts.
#26 Combine challenges (Easy)
Take a photo of yourself reading a different book at a different location. Take 10,000 steps on a new route to meet a stranger and ask for a recipe to try out. Do all challenges, a different one each day. Wake up early to make time to meditate, practice self compassion and yoga. Finish it off with a cold shower!
--> I think my list covers this.
#29 Meditate each day (Intermediate)
--> Seems like a good way for a little "me time" every day.
And so here begins my 30 days challenges. :)
Was reading articles on high existence and came across one on 30 challenges for 30 days (see above link) and was inspired to take on a few for myself through the month of August. The ones I have chosen are:
#3 Take one picture each day (Hard)
This one gets harder nearing the end of the challenge because at one point you will run out of the easy shots. This one is great to combine with other challenges, a great way to make a photo diary!
--> I will try to post each photo here.
#13 Study a topic you’d like to master each day (Hard)
Always wanted to know everything about Animal Behaviour? Psychology? Physics? Philosophy? Educate yourself without school! Pick a topic, plan at least a lecture or an assignment each day and become a genius on your passion!
--> I've been slowly working on learning Italian for an upcoming trip and have been slacking so this should help me get back on track. Maybe by the end of the month I'll post in Italian.
#18 Inspire yourself each day (Easy)
Studies have shown that people who are inspired are happier, nicer, productive and will not stray away from their chosen path if life gets difficult. So print a quote and tape it to the mirror. Have an inspirational video as your starting page. Use an inspirational mantra for meditation. Get a principle to live by. In short, get your dose of inspiration each day!
--> Now to find an appropriate quote.
#19 Take a cold shower each day (Intermediate)
Cold showers are great for uplifting ones mood, cure stress related diseases, to strengthens ones immune system and to make your skin beautiful. You can read the reports of some HEthens that have been trying it for some time over here!
--> I don't mind the occasional cold shower but a month straight...
#23 Wake up early each day (Intermediate)
It is well to be up before daybreak, for such habits contribute to health, wealth, and wisdom. – Aristotle
--> I like my sleep, this should be interesting.
#24 Keep a journal (Intermediate)
Great for memory, reflection and especially awesome to look back to in the future and remember the good old times when you did these challenges!
--> I'm going to keep my journal here so aiming for daily posts.
#26 Combine challenges (Easy)
Take a photo of yourself reading a different book at a different location. Take 10,000 steps on a new route to meet a stranger and ask for a recipe to try out. Do all challenges, a different one each day. Wake up early to make time to meditate, practice self compassion and yoga. Finish it off with a cold shower!
--> I think my list covers this.
#29 Meditate each day (Intermediate)
--> Seems like a good way for a little "me time" every day.
And so here begins my 30 days challenges. :)
Thursday, 21 July 2011
Tim Harford: Trial, error and the God complex | Video on TED.com
Entertaining and thought provoking talk that I thought I'd share.
Thursday, 30 June 2011
Wake up and dream
Live the life you always wanted.
Take a leap of faith and reach,
no one's going to do it for you.
What are you waiting for?
What's holding you back?
I'd hazard a guess
that it's you.
Your own fears,
worries,
and what ifs...
Let them go.
They don't matter.
All we have is here and now,
better make the best of it.
Or you'll only be left with
thoughts of what might have been.
Better to regret what you've done
than to regret that you never tried.
Take a leap of faith and reach,
no one's going to do it for you.
What are you waiting for?
What's holding you back?
I'd hazard a guess
that it's you.
Your own fears,
worries,
and what ifs...
Let them go.
They don't matter.
All we have is here and now,
better make the best of it.
Or you'll only be left with
thoughts of what might have been.
Better to regret what you've done
than to regret that you never tried.
Friday, 6 May 2011
K. Flay
Was introduced to her music and this video by a friend of mine and I'm diggin it. Check it out!
K. Flay live at the Pheonix
K. Flay live at the Pheonix
Wednesday, 4 May 2011
Some things are better left unsaid, some questions better off unasked, but some demand and persist until you don't have a choice...
Dear old friend,
What do I mean to you now? If anything at all...
You say you'll be in my city for a show but won't be able to visit - so why did you tell me? Were you testing to see what response you would get? Looking for a reaction? Testing the water maybe...I don't know what to make of this.
Then, a random three word message: "I miss you" - my mind goes off on all kinds of tangents with nowhere to land because I don't know where you stand and I'm scared to ask. Uncertain as to whether or not I really want an answer.
My mind wanders. I remember seemingly simpler times...easy conversation about anything and everything...curling up on the couch watching movies...lying on the trampoline to watch the stars...dancing...cheesecake...late night coffee...you were my rock, the one I could lean on, and trust to catch me - or carry me on occasion - and I want to thank you for that.
I also want to apologize for any time that I have taken you for granted, I never meant to...
--
Time marches on. Life gets in the way. Things get complicated - though this is likely only because we make it that way. Choices are made, chances are missed, and we go on trying to make the best of what we've got.
--
I miss you. I miss the friendship that we had. My mind reels with what ifs, and questions of what might have been, despite knowing I'll never get any answers because I can't change the past, I can't go back and redo things.
I reached a point of acceptance - at least I thought I did - accepting that our lives went different directions and I don't mean what I once did to you. But that doesn't stop me from caring or thinking about you and wondering if you're happy.
Maybe the connection we shared is still there just waiting for the right contact to reconnect and complete the circuit... I miss what we shared before and part of me continues to wonder if there should have been something more... I'm afraid to ask. I don't know what I would do with the answer and I don't know if I could handle it. Maybe it's all in my head...
--
You are one of the few that I have ever felt really connected with, believed that you really got me and I'm thankful for having shared that. I'm thankful that you have been a part of my life and will cherish what we shared and the memories we created. I hope that I've been good to you and have been the friend you needed me to be.
I would love the chance to get to know you the way I used to and to build on the easy friendship we've shared but I leave that up to you. I'm afraid to open myself up to find it to be one-sided but I'm willing if you are.
What do I mean to you now? If anything at all...
You say you'll be in my city for a show but won't be able to visit - so why did you tell me? Were you testing to see what response you would get? Looking for a reaction? Testing the water maybe...I don't know what to make of this.
Then, a random three word message: "I miss you" - my mind goes off on all kinds of tangents with nowhere to land because I don't know where you stand and I'm scared to ask. Uncertain as to whether or not I really want an answer.
My mind wanders. I remember seemingly simpler times...easy conversation about anything and everything...curling up on the couch watching movies...lying on the trampoline to watch the stars...dancing...cheesecake...late night coffee...you were my rock, the one I could lean on, and trust to catch me - or carry me on occasion - and I want to thank you for that.
I also want to apologize for any time that I have taken you for granted, I never meant to...
--
Time marches on. Life gets in the way. Things get complicated - though this is likely only because we make it that way. Choices are made, chances are missed, and we go on trying to make the best of what we've got.
--
I miss you. I miss the friendship that we had. My mind reels with what ifs, and questions of what might have been, despite knowing I'll never get any answers because I can't change the past, I can't go back and redo things.
I reached a point of acceptance - at least I thought I did - accepting that our lives went different directions and I don't mean what I once did to you. But that doesn't stop me from caring or thinking about you and wondering if you're happy.
Maybe the connection we shared is still there just waiting for the right contact to reconnect and complete the circuit... I miss what we shared before and part of me continues to wonder if there should have been something more... I'm afraid to ask. I don't know what I would do with the answer and I don't know if I could handle it. Maybe it's all in my head...
--
You are one of the few that I have ever felt really connected with, believed that you really got me and I'm thankful for having shared that. I'm thankful that you have been a part of my life and will cherish what we shared and the memories we created. I hope that I've been good to you and have been the friend you needed me to be.
I would love the chance to get to know you the way I used to and to build on the easy friendship we've shared but I leave that up to you. I'm afraid to open myself up to find it to be one-sided but I'm willing if you are.
With love from your old friend
Friday, 15 April 2011
one more pill
spewing words into the void
talking
not really saying anything
not believing most of the words that come out of your own mouth
but still talking
why?
to hear the sound of your own voice?
to drown out the frightening silence?
to stop the voices in your head?
do you even know?
probably doesn't really matter
no one's really listening anyway
they're in their own little worlds
dealing with their own skeletons and demons
do we even really know each other?
there are so many things that allow us to connect
but very little that actually keeps us connected
that requires effort
and care
and the risk of getting hurt
and most of us are not okay with that
most of us aren't willing
to open up that much to ourselves
let alone to someone else
and we're so self-absorbed that we probably wouldn't even notice
or care
if someone opened the door
to let us into their world for a while
it's sad really
so many of us
spend our lives
alone together
no wonder there's a pill out there for every problem
no one wants to talk about what's actually going on
we want that quick fix
the bandaid solution
doesn't matter if it's not really a solution
it's better than it is without it
we are a damaged species
and we just keep digging the knife in
a little further
a little more
one more pill
and maybe it won't hurt anymore...
talking
not really saying anything
not believing most of the words that come out of your own mouth
but still talking
why?
to hear the sound of your own voice?
to drown out the frightening silence?
to stop the voices in your head?
do you even know?
probably doesn't really matter
no one's really listening anyway
they're in their own little worlds
dealing with their own skeletons and demons
do we even really know each other?
there are so many things that allow us to connect
but very little that actually keeps us connected
that requires effort
and care
and the risk of getting hurt
and most of us are not okay with that
most of us aren't willing
to open up that much to ourselves
let alone to someone else
and we're so self-absorbed that we probably wouldn't even notice
or care
if someone opened the door
to let us into their world for a while
it's sad really
so many of us
spend our lives
alone together
no wonder there's a pill out there for every problem
no one wants to talk about what's actually going on
we want that quick fix
the bandaid solution
doesn't matter if it's not really a solution
it's better than it is without it
we are a damaged species
and we just keep digging the knife in
a little further
a little more
one more pill
and maybe it won't hurt anymore...
Friday, 8 April 2011
The rules of life from a wise, old homeless cat:
1) Ask for help when you need it.
2) Accept help when it's offered.
3) Take only what you need.
4) Respect the "Rules of the House."
5) Send a thank you note. (Or a dead mouse.)
6) Be open to new friends.
7) Be true to who you are.
8) If you find something that give you joy - like sailing by a woman on her way upstairs - do it with all your heart.
It would be a better world if we followed Spike's rules of life. Yes, I think he has it exactly right.
(This entry is from a story titled "The Purrfect Guest" by Vicki Kitchner printed in Chicken Soup for the Soul: What I learned from the Cat)
2) Accept help when it's offered.
3) Take only what you need.
4) Respect the "Rules of the House."
5) Send a thank you note. (Or a dead mouse.)
6) Be open to new friends.
7) Be true to who you are.
8) If you find something that give you joy - like sailing by a woman on her way upstairs - do it with all your heart.
It would be a better world if we followed Spike's rules of life. Yes, I think he has it exactly right.
(This entry is from a story titled "The Purrfect Guest" by Vicki Kitchner printed in Chicken Soup for the Soul: What I learned from the Cat)
Need to write...
...but I don't know what it is that I want to say. I can feel it inside and the need for it to get out but I'm not sure what words to use to express myself.
--
Feeling lost and alone
though I know I'm not
alone.
--
Confused and uncertain and not knowing how to respond. Proud of what I made but unsure what to do with the reaction. No harm no foul, right? I'm not sure. I guess that depends on where you're standing.
--
Going round in circles in my head.
Going nowhere fast.
Doesn't really matter.
I guess it just wasn't meant to last.
--
Feeling lost and alone
though I know I'm not
alone.
--
Confused and uncertain and not knowing how to respond. Proud of what I made but unsure what to do with the reaction. No harm no foul, right? I'm not sure. I guess that depends on where you're standing.
--
Going round in circles in my head.
Going nowhere fast.
Doesn't really matter.
I guess it just wasn't meant to last.
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