Sunday, 28 January 2007

T-shirt images that amused me...










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Friday, 26 January 2007

Something to think about....

Teach me to walk and I shall run
Teach me to look and I shall see
Teach me to hear and I shall listen
Teach me to sing and I shall rejoice
For your instructions are imprinted in my mind
And your shared experiences I shall keep
What I have learned, I shall treasure
And by learning to fly
I shall soar!
- Donna L. Clovis

(I found this quote in Chicken Soup for the Kid's Soul. I like it. Made me think about the effects we have on others, whomever they may be - children, friends, parents, family.)

Wednesday, 24 January 2007

Milo





This is my new kitten, Milo. He's 17 weeks and a day. Just brought him home today. So far he's been pretty mellow. Wandering around, checking things out, and curling up under things. He's quite affectionate and his fur is impressively soft. He's awesome!


Sunday, 21 January 2007

Catch and release

It's a little weird to realize that I had been caught for longer than I thought but it feels really good to begin to reach the point of being released. To gain the awareness that I am in control, and that I can let go without falling apart. The knowledge that it's an idea and not an individual that claims my desire creates an odd kind of freedom. Realizing that allows me to smile and laugh again, and to move forward. An idea is something that can be carried forward and potentially made into reality at another time. It's much harder to reach release when one's desire is focused on an individual who desires something different. It pleases me to know that I can let go of what I had with him. That doesn't mean I stop caring or forget what we shared, but it does mean that I'm reaching a point of potentially being able to give myself to someone else. And this is a nice place to be in. It's a place I haven't been for a while and it's good to be back. It's fun to get caught up in touch, feelings, and desire. The trick is, if it ends, being able to figure out how to be released, again. This is something that we each must determine for ourselves for the particular situation. Just because something worked before doesn't mean that it will work this time, but it does give us a place to start. Time, space, and good friends seems to be what I needed this time. Maybe that'll help again and maybe something else will be needed. Only time will tell. For now, I'm going to have some fun and wait to see what happens next time I'm caught.

Wednesday, 17 January 2007

Article from Lavalife

I found some of this interesting. I can understand most of the suggestions that are in it but I know some people that won't get the logic behind some (like being friends with an ex) but whatever. Let me know what you think. Cheers!



7 Things Every Single Should Do
By Sarah Fielding

Single life shouldn't deprive you of pleasures such as fine dining, exotic travel or fancy jewelry - things often associated with couples. In fact, a little indulgence helps broadcast the message that you're happening. So get cracking with our handy list.

1. Dine at a Top Restaurant -- Alone
Why? Why should couples be the only ones who can lavish themselves with good food, fine wines and be served by seriously swish wait staff?
Your Just Desserts: Eat out at the best restaurant in town, ordering whatever takes your fancy from the menu -- and to hell with the expense. Ask the sommelier to recommend a bottle of your favorite wine style. Dining alone is a skill that requires supreme confidence, so feel free invite another single friend to join you while you live it up.
The Upside: Knowing who'll foot the bill -- and that the only person you'll have to sleep with after a meal this expensive is you.

2. Buy Yourself a Great Piece of Jewelry
Why?
Because waiting for Mr. or Ms. Right to shower you with gifts is soooo last century.
Be Your Own Sugar Daddy: If there's an object you desire -- a Tiffany pendant or designer cufflinks, say -- set up a savings plan so you can buy yourself that coveted trinket. Better still, buy your chosen charm as a reward for reaching another personal goal, such as getting a well-earned promotion at work.
The Upside: Knowing that you earned it and paid for it yourself provides a sense of self-satisfaction that's hard to match.

3. Leave a Job You Hate
Why?
According to a 2005 Australian survey, 56 per cent of workers are unhappy with their jobs. Figures are comparable in North America.
Hit the Road, Jack: We all know that a bad work situation can create stress and tension that has a way of seeping into all other areas of our lives. Starting a new job or even a new career brings with it a sense of excitement and purpose that can invigorate the rest of your life. Isn't it time you reviewed your career options and planned your escape?
The Upside: The sense of power that comes with telling your slave-driver boss (in the nicest possible terms) to take their crummy job and shove it is a feeling that every underpaid and over-worked employee should experience at least once in their life.

4. Travel Solo
Why?
Don't compromise your travel style and sightseeing agenda to suit someone else. Set out on your own for an unforgettable travel experience.
See the World Solo: When it comes to solo travel, start small. A weekend escape -- be it B&B or five-star resort -- will leave you feeling refreshed and recharged. Sitting by the pool playing the incognito movie star card gives you plenty of time for self-reflection -- and the opportunity to plan your next fabulous getaway.
The Upside? No negotiation over destination required. Plus, you won't have to share your miniature shampoo booty with anyone, and you'll know who scoffed all the Pringles from the mini-bar.

5. Be Friends with an Ex
Why?
Good friends are hard to find. And the best ones are worth hanging on to -- even if they have seen you with no clothes on.
On Friendly Terms: A milestone in maturity, the ability to remain on friendly terms with someone who was once a lover takes tact, patience and diplomacy.
The Upside: Having at least one ex that you're still friends with lets the world know you're not bitter, twisted or obsessive. Rather it shows that you recognize that a quality friendship was at the heart of your lost romance, and that this is something worth preserving.

6. Do the Wild Thing
Why?
Countless studies suggest that an active sex life does wonders for our mental and physical well-being, boosting endorphin levels, underlining self-confidence and just generally making us feel better.
Get your Rocks Off: I'm not suggesting you fling you morals aside with all the enthusiasm of a stripper in full flight. I'm merely suggesting that if there's a particular itch that you'd like to scratch, use the opportunity of singledom to give it a go.
The Upside: Nothing puts a spring in your step quite like achieving a sexual milestone.

7. Have a Lost Weekend
Why?
Because if you don't have at least one incriminating story of excess that the grandkids should never hear about, you'll probably live to regret it.
Get Lost: Stay out all night dancing on tables and doing tequila body shots with your best friend. Loose yourself in a Czech beer hall drinking 'til dawn with two Hebrew-speaking Mexicans. It doesn't matter with whom, it doesn't matter where; just do it before you settle down.
The Upside? You'll learn about your alcohol tolerance, you'll learn about your self-control and, when you awaken after your lost weekend, you'll understand the true meaning of pain.

This list is by no means definitive; it's intended to inspire you to create your own list of things to aspire to, goals to reach and experiences to try at least once in your lifetime.

Setting -- and reaching -- these targets will show you that taking a few risks and stepping out of your comfort zone really does helps you bloom and grow into a fabulous, well-balanced and accomplished individual. Get cracking!

Monday, 15 January 2007

I really like this song. I'm not really sure what it is about it that I like but that doesn't really matter anyway. I like it, why should I question that? I particularly like the last few lines. It's kind of cynical but also somewhat realistic.

Comfortably Numb - Pink Floyd

Hello?
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me.
Is there anyone home?
Come on, now.
I hear you're feeling down.
Well I can ease your pain,
Get you on your feet again.
Relax.
I need some information first.
Just the basic facts,
Can you show me where it hurts?

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're sayin'.

When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I got that feeling once again.
I can't explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.

Ok.
Just a little pinprick.
There'll be no more ...Aaaaaahhhhh!
But you may feel a little sick.
Can you stand up?
I do believe it's working. Good.
That'll keep you going for the show.
Come on it's time to go.

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're sayin'.

When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.
Sometimes, I guess, there just aren't enough rocks.

- Forrest Gump

Sunday, 14 January 2007

Somewhat disturbing....


Alright, I found this on a friend of mine's blog (fyrephreak) and it got me thinking. There are so many people fixated on diamonds and their value, but how many people think about where they come from, and how they are retrieved? Probably not too many, because people have a tendancy to ignore things like this. There are so many people that own diamonds or one day hope to. How many can say that their diamond is not a conflict diamond, or even stop to consider something like that? The value people place on diamonds is not something that I understand. I'm not one who is particularly into material things generally, so I suppose that's part of the reason I don't understand. What is it that makes a diamond worth so much? Obviously, this is not something I know a whole lot about. I pick up random bits here and there and it seems that the more I learn about it the less desire I have to own a diamond. Oh well, I guess that's just me.

Saturday, 13 January 2007

Please ask me to wait

“I'm lost. I've gone to look for myself. If I should return before I get back, please ask me to wait.”

It’s a little weird to be able to relate to a statement like this, but I can. I don’t know if I can explain it in a way for others to understand but I feel like I’m lost within myself. Wanting to figure out who I am and where I fit but not knowing where to start, or what questions I need to ask. I feel stuck. Every time I think I’ve started to figure things out something happens to throw that off. It’s not necessarily anything significant, just something. Sometimes it’s an event, sometimes it’s something someone says, and sometimes it’s just a single thought that flashes through my mind. I want to reach out to others for help, for reassurance, for some understanding … but I’m just not sure how. I don’t know if I can. My track record makes it hard to know. I feel close to people on some levels and on others can’t seem to let go of my independence enough to rely on someone else. Part of this may be because of people I’ve known proving to be unreliable when I needed someone just to be there. Part of it also may be from often being the strength for someone else, just being used to being the one to be leaned on. I’m not really sure. Just trying to express some thoughts. Don’t really know if any of this makes sense, but I’m not too worried about that, as this isn’t really being done for anyone but me. I wonder if I’m capable of opening myself up enough to be vulnerable to someone else … I used to be but I’m not so sure I am anymore. I don’t like being vulnerable and I’m not sure about someone else having that kind of impact on me. On the other hand, I’m not a big fan of having that kind of impact on someone else either. It scares me to think of the pain that someone could cause me, or that I could cause someone else, to feel. My thoughts are so scattered, I’m not really certain of anything. I don’t know who I am or who I want to be. And I don’t know how to go about figuring that out. So, like it says in the quote, if you see me before I do please ask me to wait.

Friday, 12 January 2007

life, n.: A whim of several billion cells to be you for a while

Monday, 8 January 2007

It can't be premarital sex, if no one has proposed...

bumper sticker

Sunday, 7 January 2007

Broken


Shattered memories
and broken hearts.

A wandering mind
left to wonder.

Nothing makes sense
but everything's in its place.

You're there and I'm here
but something's not right.

I'm not who I was
and I don't know you anymore.

Disconnected
from the reality of what was.

Having a knowledge
I never wanted.

To know love and pain
more intimately than I ever imagined.

Feeling very alone
despite being surrounded by others.

To be looking
for something that's no longer there.

Broken
and scared.

Saturday, 6 January 2007

Top 5

Okay... got a challenge from a friend of mine's blog (www.devoncoupland.blogspot.com) and I know he'll keep harrassing me till I do it so here it is:

Top 5 songs that provide me with some form of escape:
(in no particular order)

1) If you were here - Poe
2) Hurt - Johnny Cash
3) True Colors - Cindi Lauper
4) Do you sleep? - Lisa Loeb
5) Hey Pretty (Drive-By 2001 Mix) - Poe

And for anyone that's interested the challenge was to make a list of the top five songs for something in your life.

Tuesday, 2 January 2007

A new beginning...

So, here we are at the beginning of a new year. Did you make your resolutions? If that is something that you do, I generally don't. Though, I have come to some conclusions about my own situation and what I'm going to do from here. I hope everyone had a good ending to this past year and I wish everyone the best in the year to come. :)